Attending the Lady Gaga concertÂ wore me out!Â I’m not used to getting home at 1:00 a.m.Â Â Last night I slept well so I was a bit surprised that I felt blue all day.Â Usually that happens when I don’t get enough sleep or I have a lot on my mind.Â The feeling of being “under-the-weather” intensified mid-morning after a phone call brought disappointing news; the kind that hits you in the gut and hurts.Â The expectations I have for a family member weren’t met and once again I’m sad.Â This is nothing new.Â Iâve felt this disappointment countless times.Â It hurts me he hasnât learned a lesson and now may have the opportunity to spend a long time figuring it out.
I contemplated; is it ok to be depressed when your entire life is focused on accentuating the positive?Â Does Deepak Chopra, Marianne Williamson or Dr. Wayne Dyer ever feel low?Â If they do, do they allow others to know they are feeling blue?Â Would that diminish their effectiveness as motivational speakers?Â Shouldnât I suck it up, pull up my britches and just be happy?
I’ve come to the conclusion it is okay to be down.Â It’s an emotion and part of being authentically me.Â I remind myself I want to ride the rollercoaster of life and enjoy the exhilarations of bliss andÂ theÂ dreadful lows.Â What I don’t want is to allow other peoplesâ actions or comments to immediately take me down.
As the day closes Iâm back feeling centered, having gone full circle, knowing that my contentment or lack off, depends on me.Â Â Iâm listening to Jason Mraz, âDetails in the Fabricâ. Â Â Thereâs a message here:
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads saying
Breaking yourself up
If itâs a broken part, replace it
But, if itâs a broken arm then brace it
If itâs a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
K now your name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine.â